This is my life today! Our AC has been all kinds of wonky the past 3 days. OF COURSE things go wrong with the house when our landlords are on vacation and are on a very nice cruise! (take me with you!) lol but they're back now! They said the AC man was going to come in the morning but VOILA he came today and it's fixed! Pheww it feels so much better in here! :)
Why is it that EVERY time I cook, doesn't matter what it is, I can never make it look pretty? Seriously though! I just pulled the meatloaf out of the oven and it's all lopsided and looks like I slapped it in the pan without mushing it down. When I made sure I mushed it all pretty like and evenly before I popped that sucker in the oven. I just don't get it! Maybe there's a little minion in my oven that messes with my pretty food! Little shit!
Grayson has been having this HORRIBLE rash in between the creases of his little chunky legs. Well, it's not horrible per se but it's really red. It doesn't seem to bother him though. I put some diaper rash cream on it and it looks a little better. That's the best area where poopie wants to hide and of course my child has to be a wiggle worm where I can't properly clean it like I need to. At least the bath takes care of it. Silly child!
Grayson is 1 month and 1 week old and I'm seriously gonna cry! He's getting so big and long! If he doesn't watch out, he's gonna be bigger than I am before he's 2! He's such a little sweetie though and just cracks me and TC up! I'll be breastfeeding him and he LOVES to stick his thumb in his mouth while he eats, and I keep telling him he can't do that and he'll give me the weirdest look like, "watch me!" He evens does this when I bottle feed him. It's easier for him to do it with the bottle though. I'll tell him to give me that thumb because apparently it's just so delicious! He'll pop it out of his mouth, go and try and put it in my mouth, then pulls it away all like, "sike momma!", smiles, and squeezes it back into his mouth. He's such a little goober head! I love him so much!
Grayson and I went over to my sister's house today to babysit my almost 21 month old niece. She's so sticken cute! She helped me feed Grayson a bottle, burp him, and change his diaper. She was very intrigued by is sticky-outtie belly button. And of course asked what that thing was in between his legs. "Woah what's that?" Haha! I laid Grayson down in her crib for nap time and we watched him on the video monitor and every time Grayson made a noise or he moved, Elizabeth would gasp and say, "baby!" and run to her room to check on him. She was so excited! We had a little incident when she was telling me where all of her facial features were. She would point to her nose and say, "nose," then point to Grayson's nose and say, "nose," but when it came to pointing and saying "eyes," she accidentally poked Grayson in the eye. He screamed so bad and I calmed him down and told Elizabeth that it was ok and that Grayson was ok and of course she just a boo-hooed. I think it scared him more than anything lol. She's getting so smart and starting to talk real good. She knows some of her numbers and colors, knows a lot of peoples' names, and knows where all of her body parts are. She called me "Rye-Rye" for the first time today. Proud aunt moment! And even said "Lollie" for Grandma Lollie today. She also asked Grayson, "who's your pappy?" bahaha! She's a mess, I tell ya! I lover her so much!
We just got the info about my family's family reunion on my Nanie's side down in Florida, and I'm so excited that TC, Grayson, and I are going to be able to make it. Well, we believe we can as long as we save up the money too. It's not until July 6th so we have a little over a month. We're going to have to rent a car because both of our cars won't make it down there very good. I'm just so excited! I haven't been down to Florida to see my family since the summer of 2011. TC hasn't met any of them yet and neither has Grayson. I just can't wait! :)
Alrighty, well I'm waiting on TC to get home from his mom's house so we can eat dinner BEFORE Grayson wakes up. That kid is exhaust-a-pated today! :D
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Tummy Aches and Gas Are No Fun!
Grayson has had a tummy ache and really bad gas for 2 days now. I gave him some gas drops that have been helping a lot, but my poor little chug bug doesn't feel good! On top of it all, he's been having really bad nightmares. :(
We went to the mall, Kohls, and Rue 21 today with Gretchen and Grayson wanted to be wide awake since it was a new place. He did fall asleep a little in the carrier but still wasn't enough of a nap for him. We left at noon and didn't get back until 5! I haven't been shopping like that in awhile! Grayson was a little fussy but was good overall. Of course he was exhausted once we got home and fell right asleep. Well he wasn't asleep but for 30 minutes and the neighbor had a bunch of kids over who woke him up! Rude and disrespectful kids at that! So I packed up the car and went to my mom's and grandparents' house for a couple of hours where Grandma Lo-Lee and Nanie rocked him and spanged him (spanking lightly and singing at the same time for those of you who were like huh? lol). That got out A LOT of gas!
He's finally asleep and has been for a good hour almost. Poor little thing! I wish I could just take his pain away because he looks so miserable! I hope he gets some sleep tonight. He should since he's so worn out.
He's been such a good baby since the day he was born though. He doesn't cry much besides the usual cries of being hungry and having a dirty diaper. Some times, he just wants mommy time and be held (more like just uses me as an excuse to get the boobie lol). He's finally on a good schedule though and he only wakes up twice through the night as of a couple days ago. He's like a little rooster though! He'll wake up the second that sun peeks through the windows and wanna stay up until about 9-10. That's probably the toughest time because he'll wanna be wide awake and quiet where he just wants to stare and hear himself babble, but that only lasts about 15-20 minutes and he just cries until I give him the boob again and some mommy time.
I can't help but to just stare at his cute, little face. He looks like a little turtle, he's so sticken cute! It's so amazing how two people can create something so perfect. It gets frustrating some times, but I seriously wouldn't trade it for the world and I don't take one minute for granted. I love him so much! I never knew how much you can fall in love with someone you just met. It's such an amazing feeling! He's growing up so fast I can't believe my eyes! He's already a month old and I'm seriously gonna lose it with emotion.
Ok, it's late and TC is at work so I'm gonna snuggle up to my little boy and try to get some sleep. Grayson has been asleep for the past 2.5 hours! Crazy talk! Goodnight everyone! Stay safe this Memorial Weekend and remember those fallen soldiers and pray for their families. God bless! <3
We went to the mall, Kohls, and Rue 21 today with Gretchen and Grayson wanted to be wide awake since it was a new place. He did fall asleep a little in the carrier but still wasn't enough of a nap for him. We left at noon and didn't get back until 5! I haven't been shopping like that in awhile! Grayson was a little fussy but was good overall. Of course he was exhausted once we got home and fell right asleep. Well he wasn't asleep but for 30 minutes and the neighbor had a bunch of kids over who woke him up! Rude and disrespectful kids at that! So I packed up the car and went to my mom's and grandparents' house for a couple of hours where Grandma Lo-Lee and Nanie rocked him and spanged him (spanking lightly and singing at the same time for those of you who were like huh? lol). That got out A LOT of gas!
He's finally asleep and has been for a good hour almost. Poor little thing! I wish I could just take his pain away because he looks so miserable! I hope he gets some sleep tonight. He should since he's so worn out.
He's been such a good baby since the day he was born though. He doesn't cry much besides the usual cries of being hungry and having a dirty diaper. Some times, he just wants mommy time and be held (more like just uses me as an excuse to get the boobie lol). He's finally on a good schedule though and he only wakes up twice through the night as of a couple days ago. He's like a little rooster though! He'll wake up the second that sun peeks through the windows and wanna stay up until about 9-10. That's probably the toughest time because he'll wanna be wide awake and quiet where he just wants to stare and hear himself babble, but that only lasts about 15-20 minutes and he just cries until I give him the boob again and some mommy time.
I can't help but to just stare at his cute, little face. He looks like a little turtle, he's so sticken cute! It's so amazing how two people can create something so perfect. It gets frustrating some times, but I seriously wouldn't trade it for the world and I don't take one minute for granted. I love him so much! I never knew how much you can fall in love with someone you just met. It's such an amazing feeling! He's growing up so fast I can't believe my eyes! He's already a month old and I'm seriously gonna lose it with emotion.
Ok, it's late and TC is at work so I'm gonna snuggle up to my little boy and try to get some sleep. Grayson has been asleep for the past 2.5 hours! Crazy talk! Goodnight everyone! Stay safe this Memorial Weekend and remember those fallen soldiers and pray for their families. God bless! <3
Friday, May 24, 2013
Gotta Brag A Little Here
I seriously have the best husband ever! He didn't do anything today for me to say this (other than just being a great husband like always), but I'm serious! TC and I have only been dating a year and in that year we have gotten to know each other, fell in love with each other, made a baby, got married, and have been happy. I'm seriously the happiest I can be right now.
Some people always say you don't know a person after just a year of dating...and you can't fall madly in love with someone in just a year. Well, they're wrong because it has happened with TC and I. And I'm not just saying that because we had a baby. It feels like we've known each other forever.
When we found out I was pregnant, we were scared...no, we were TERRIFED! But TC reassured me that he wasn't going anywhere. That was my biggest fear. We had only been dating for 3 months and I got pregnant. I know that's a VERY short time...but we were in love. We had gotten to know each other so fast (considering the night we met, I poured everything out to him). I told him everything I had been through the past year. Granted, I didn't tell him EVERYTHING that I've been through. That came later. When I told him all of these things so fast, I thought, "oh great! I blew it! I scared him off." But that wasn't the case. He was an odd ball and was into things that most people would think was so weird and would be turned off from...but not me. I always give people chances. I don't judge anyone. I get to know a person before I jump to assumptions.
Shortly after we started talking, TC left for 10 days for AT. That's the moment when we got to really know each other. That's when we fell in love. That's the moment he first said "I love you" to me. And it's funny that you can be so connected to a person and get to know a person better when you're apart from them. TC was scared that I thought he was weird. He was scared that I was turned off by him and that he scared me off. I thought the same. They say opposites attract and they're right. TC and I never had much in common back then and we still really don't. But we do agree on a lot of things. We both hate to talk about politics and religion. We both believe what we believe and although we don't have the same beliefs on certain things, we accept that and never argue about it. We talk about it but we both agree that you can't change a person no matter how hard you try so why even bother? That just makes a person miserable.
It's amazing how you can fall so deeply in love with someone so fast. I've always been the type of person that the second I meet you, I find a connection with you. I get really close to people very easily and sometimes that back fires on me because it winds up with that person leaving me and me getting hurt. And that's only because me and that other person wind up not having anything to talk about anymore. We wind up getting to know each other so fast that we don't have anything in common anymore and we just part ways. And then sometimes, they just leave. I've been used to that my whole life. My daddy left me when I was 10. When he remarried, my stepmom and I got really attached because 1. I get along with anyone no matter the situation and 2. we had a lot in common. Once they separated and divorced, my stepmom and I lost touch and parted ways for 4 years and that hurt. It took me a long time to get over. But then we got back in touch by bumping into each other at my brother's birthday party at Frankie's Fun Park.
Any way, I got really comfortable with TC although I had a huge wall up because I had just gotten out of a rough relationship. I build walls and I hate it sometimes. I guess it's so I don't get hurt even though I wind up getting hurt in the end any way....but not with TC.
TC and I have never gotten into an argument where we're yelling and screaming at each other. Granted, we have tested each other's nerves which has led me to driving off mad and him sleeping on the couch...but we work it out. We cool off and talk about it and then we're both good and normal again.
I can tell you this though. I have fallen more in love with him after our son was born. The thought of 2 people creating something so sweet and innocent is just beautiful. It's been rough after we've gotten through the "happy baby" stage, but we manage. We still talk through anything and everything that frustrates us. I think the biggest thing now is the fact that TC is always working and I'm always at home with Grayson. That and I breastfeed and try to keep Grayson on the boob unless we're out and about so TC can't feed him. TC always tells me to pump a bottle so he can take turns feeding Grayson at night but it's just so much easier to breastfeed him and go to sleep.
TC has been so helpful though. He works so hard working 3 jobs (although he doesn't count the military as a job lol). He takes care of me and Grayson and makes sure we're alright above himself. He sacrifices so much for us and I don't think I could ever be so proud. He's the best husband and daddy I've ever seen.
The week after Grayson was born, TC had to go back to work and since I was having some complications, TC's mom stayed with Grayson and I one night. We stayed up talking and she was telling me about the night that TC and I went on our first date. She was telling me that TC always tells her things (more things then she wants to know lol) but that when she asked him where he was going that night, he only told her he was going on a date with someone and left it with that. He didn't tell her the girl's name, where he was taking her, no details at all. But she said we he got home, he was all smiles. She said that she had never seen him so happy. That night, he told her how amazing I was. I couldn't help but to cry because until she told me that, I didn't think the date went so well.
On our first date, we took separate cars (because TC is horrible at directions) and met up at Grecian Gardens and talked and talked. We never had one awkward silence during dinner. I cracked up most of the time. Afterwards, we sat in the back up his truck, smoked a cigarette, and talked some more. I thought that after we were done we were gonna part ways....but we didn't. We decided to try and go to the movies and SAFELY raced there to see who's short cut was the best way (and of course I won lol). The movies were closed so we went to Wings N Ale instead and played pool and played games. TC taught me how to PROPERLY play pool and how to win a prize in the claw machine (he's really good at that one). We laughed at had a great time. We even helped a friend of mine from high school get in the car he was riding in because he was SO drunk on his 21st birthday that night lol THAT was funny seeing TC approach that one. The only reason why I thought the date didn't go well was because TC didn't kiss me. Corny as hell, I know. But that's what guys do on the first date. They pretty much stick their whole tongue in your mouth and think they're gonna get lucky that night and get to 3rd base on the 1st date lol...but not TC. When I got home that night, I was just bummed for some reason. Don't get me wrong, I respected the hell outta him for not making a move...but in the back on my mind, I wanted a damn kiss! Not a huge, blown-out, nasty kiss. Just a simple one. I got home and was happy but that kiss was just bothering the hell outta me for some odd reason. TC texted me to let me know he got home safely. I was really short with him and blamed it on me "being tired". He knew that wasn't the reason and asked me to please tell him what was wrong...so I told him. He told me that he respected me enough not to make a move. He told me that he takes dating slow. He goes on 3 dates before he determines if he wants to pursue a relationship. THAT really crushed me because I've never met a guy who said that so I thought he was just saying that to get rid of me. I felt like he didn't like me and I asked him so many questions like, "do you think you'll go on 3 dates with me?", "do you like me?", "what do you like about me?" I felt myself pushing him away and turning him off. But he reassured me he liked me so far and he really wanted to go on a 2nd date with me.
Our 2nd date consisted of meeting up at what used to be The Dam Bar and Grill and then led to The Ale House. We were both slap dab worn out and didn't really feel like being out so we took our date back to his friend AJ's house where I spent the night and cuddled with TC.
Our 3rd date consisted of going to AJ's with a few friends, playing cards, and getting drunk as shit lol. I didn't really drink though. I had a half of a 4 Loco if that. That's where we had our first kiss which was TOTALLY awkward as HELL! Only because we were playing this card game that I can't remember the name of to save my life. Well, the card game had certain rules if you laid down a certain card. Each number card had a rule to it. One of those rules was truth or dare and of course TC chose dare (because he HATES truths) so one of the girls dared him to kiss me because they knew he hadn't yet. Pretty sure we would have won the Most Awkward Moment Award of the Year! Lol! But later that night, we cuddled and he made up for the awkward kiss.
Any way! (I really do get lost in thought lol!). When TC's mom told me the reaction on his face after our first date, I literally cried I was so happy. She told me that at that moment, she knew I'd be in his life for a long time and that I was a keeper. She hadn't even met me yet and she thought that! All TC told her that night was that I was amazing. He could have hooked up with a stripper and had amazing sex for all she knew! Haha! Just kidding!
This is getting long lol probably because Grayson is sound asleep and I have all this time to write lol.
I just love TC so much! I know I say this all the time in my blog. Shoot, him and Grayson are all I talk about on my Facebook statuses too. I just can't believe how lucky I am to have such an amazing man in my life and a precious baby boy that I can just stare at and fall in love with so easily every day. Life gets crazy sometimes. No, chaotic I take that back lol. I get frustrated, I get upset, I wanna pull my own hair out at times, TC works all the time, the baby cries more times than I wanna hear, the house is a wreck, there's dishes piled up, there's dirty diapers taking up vacancy in a trash can of it's own, the same lullaby gets old after the 168th time I've sang it, bills pile up, laundry accumulates my life, I use more laundry detergent than I do any other kind of soap, I get spit up on and peed and pooped on on an hourly basis, and there are toys and pacifiers and blankets strung out in my living room....but you know what? I wouldn't trade it for the world! Because at the end of the day, none of that matters when TC comes home and holds me, kisses me, and tells me how beautiful I am and tells me how lucky he is to have me. <3 I love you, baby! <3
Some people always say you don't know a person after just a year of dating...and you can't fall madly in love with someone in just a year. Well, they're wrong because it has happened with TC and I. And I'm not just saying that because we had a baby. It feels like we've known each other forever.
When we found out I was pregnant, we were scared...no, we were TERRIFED! But TC reassured me that he wasn't going anywhere. That was my biggest fear. We had only been dating for 3 months and I got pregnant. I know that's a VERY short time...but we were in love. We had gotten to know each other so fast (considering the night we met, I poured everything out to him). I told him everything I had been through the past year. Granted, I didn't tell him EVERYTHING that I've been through. That came later. When I told him all of these things so fast, I thought, "oh great! I blew it! I scared him off." But that wasn't the case. He was an odd ball and was into things that most people would think was so weird and would be turned off from...but not me. I always give people chances. I don't judge anyone. I get to know a person before I jump to assumptions.
Shortly after we started talking, TC left for 10 days for AT. That's the moment when we got to really know each other. That's when we fell in love. That's the moment he first said "I love you" to me. And it's funny that you can be so connected to a person and get to know a person better when you're apart from them. TC was scared that I thought he was weird. He was scared that I was turned off by him and that he scared me off. I thought the same. They say opposites attract and they're right. TC and I never had much in common back then and we still really don't. But we do agree on a lot of things. We both hate to talk about politics and religion. We both believe what we believe and although we don't have the same beliefs on certain things, we accept that and never argue about it. We talk about it but we both agree that you can't change a person no matter how hard you try so why even bother? That just makes a person miserable.
It's amazing how you can fall so deeply in love with someone so fast. I've always been the type of person that the second I meet you, I find a connection with you. I get really close to people very easily and sometimes that back fires on me because it winds up with that person leaving me and me getting hurt. And that's only because me and that other person wind up not having anything to talk about anymore. We wind up getting to know each other so fast that we don't have anything in common anymore and we just part ways. And then sometimes, they just leave. I've been used to that my whole life. My daddy left me when I was 10. When he remarried, my stepmom and I got really attached because 1. I get along with anyone no matter the situation and 2. we had a lot in common. Once they separated and divorced, my stepmom and I lost touch and parted ways for 4 years and that hurt. It took me a long time to get over. But then we got back in touch by bumping into each other at my brother's birthday party at Frankie's Fun Park.
Any way, I got really comfortable with TC although I had a huge wall up because I had just gotten out of a rough relationship. I build walls and I hate it sometimes. I guess it's so I don't get hurt even though I wind up getting hurt in the end any way....but not with TC.
TC and I have never gotten into an argument where we're yelling and screaming at each other. Granted, we have tested each other's nerves which has led me to driving off mad and him sleeping on the couch...but we work it out. We cool off and talk about it and then we're both good and normal again.
I can tell you this though. I have fallen more in love with him after our son was born. The thought of 2 people creating something so sweet and innocent is just beautiful. It's been rough after we've gotten through the "happy baby" stage, but we manage. We still talk through anything and everything that frustrates us. I think the biggest thing now is the fact that TC is always working and I'm always at home with Grayson. That and I breastfeed and try to keep Grayson on the boob unless we're out and about so TC can't feed him. TC always tells me to pump a bottle so he can take turns feeding Grayson at night but it's just so much easier to breastfeed him and go to sleep.
TC has been so helpful though. He works so hard working 3 jobs (although he doesn't count the military as a job lol). He takes care of me and Grayson and makes sure we're alright above himself. He sacrifices so much for us and I don't think I could ever be so proud. He's the best husband and daddy I've ever seen.
The week after Grayson was born, TC had to go back to work and since I was having some complications, TC's mom stayed with Grayson and I one night. We stayed up talking and she was telling me about the night that TC and I went on our first date. She was telling me that TC always tells her things (more things then she wants to know lol) but that when she asked him where he was going that night, he only told her he was going on a date with someone and left it with that. He didn't tell her the girl's name, where he was taking her, no details at all. But she said we he got home, he was all smiles. She said that she had never seen him so happy. That night, he told her how amazing I was. I couldn't help but to cry because until she told me that, I didn't think the date went so well.
On our first date, we took separate cars (because TC is horrible at directions) and met up at Grecian Gardens and talked and talked. We never had one awkward silence during dinner. I cracked up most of the time. Afterwards, we sat in the back up his truck, smoked a cigarette, and talked some more. I thought that after we were done we were gonna part ways....but we didn't. We decided to try and go to the movies and SAFELY raced there to see who's short cut was the best way (and of course I won lol). The movies were closed so we went to Wings N Ale instead and played pool and played games. TC taught me how to PROPERLY play pool and how to win a prize in the claw machine (he's really good at that one). We laughed at had a great time. We even helped a friend of mine from high school get in the car he was riding in because he was SO drunk on his 21st birthday that night lol THAT was funny seeing TC approach that one. The only reason why I thought the date didn't go well was because TC didn't kiss me. Corny as hell, I know. But that's what guys do on the first date. They pretty much stick their whole tongue in your mouth and think they're gonna get lucky that night and get to 3rd base on the 1st date lol...but not TC. When I got home that night, I was just bummed for some reason. Don't get me wrong, I respected the hell outta him for not making a move...but in the back on my mind, I wanted a damn kiss! Not a huge, blown-out, nasty kiss. Just a simple one. I got home and was happy but that kiss was just bothering the hell outta me for some odd reason. TC texted me to let me know he got home safely. I was really short with him and blamed it on me "being tired". He knew that wasn't the reason and asked me to please tell him what was wrong...so I told him. He told me that he respected me enough not to make a move. He told me that he takes dating slow. He goes on 3 dates before he determines if he wants to pursue a relationship. THAT really crushed me because I've never met a guy who said that so I thought he was just saying that to get rid of me. I felt like he didn't like me and I asked him so many questions like, "do you think you'll go on 3 dates with me?", "do you like me?", "what do you like about me?" I felt myself pushing him away and turning him off. But he reassured me he liked me so far and he really wanted to go on a 2nd date with me.
Our 2nd date consisted of meeting up at what used to be The Dam Bar and Grill and then led to The Ale House. We were both slap dab worn out and didn't really feel like being out so we took our date back to his friend AJ's house where I spent the night and cuddled with TC.
Our 3rd date consisted of going to AJ's with a few friends, playing cards, and getting drunk as shit lol. I didn't really drink though. I had a half of a 4 Loco if that. That's where we had our first kiss which was TOTALLY awkward as HELL! Only because we were playing this card game that I can't remember the name of to save my life. Well, the card game had certain rules if you laid down a certain card. Each number card had a rule to it. One of those rules was truth or dare and of course TC chose dare (because he HATES truths) so one of the girls dared him to kiss me because they knew he hadn't yet. Pretty sure we would have won the Most Awkward Moment Award of the Year! Lol! But later that night, we cuddled and he made up for the awkward kiss.
Any way! (I really do get lost in thought lol!). When TC's mom told me the reaction on his face after our first date, I literally cried I was so happy. She told me that at that moment, she knew I'd be in his life for a long time and that I was a keeper. She hadn't even met me yet and she thought that! All TC told her that night was that I was amazing. He could have hooked up with a stripper and had amazing sex for all she knew! Haha! Just kidding!
This is getting long lol probably because Grayson is sound asleep and I have all this time to write lol.
I just love TC so much! I know I say this all the time in my blog. Shoot, him and Grayson are all I talk about on my Facebook statuses too. I just can't believe how lucky I am to have such an amazing man in my life and a precious baby boy that I can just stare at and fall in love with so easily every day. Life gets crazy sometimes. No, chaotic I take that back lol. I get frustrated, I get upset, I wanna pull my own hair out at times, TC works all the time, the baby cries more times than I wanna hear, the house is a wreck, there's dishes piled up, there's dirty diapers taking up vacancy in a trash can of it's own, the same lullaby gets old after the 168th time I've sang it, bills pile up, laundry accumulates my life, I use more laundry detergent than I do any other kind of soap, I get spit up on and peed and pooped on on an hourly basis, and there are toys and pacifiers and blankets strung out in my living room....but you know what? I wouldn't trade it for the world! Because at the end of the day, none of that matters when TC comes home and holds me, kisses me, and tells me how beautiful I am and tells me how lucky he is to have me. <3 I love you, baby! <3
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Monday, May 20, 2013
Good News :)
So TC found out last weekend that he won't be deploying. The circumstances behind it suck and TC's not too thrilled about it to say the least, but I'm SO happy he isn't going!
He got to AT on the 10th. I had to drive down to his unit in Saluda to give him some documentation and let me just tell you, Grayson was SO good on the trip there and back!
Well, that Saturday (the 11th), TC found his profile in his stuff and had to turn it in. His profile pretty much says he can't do anything because of his knee. He can't carry a weapon, he can't walk a certain amount of yards with equipment, and he can't run or swim or any of that jazz....because of his knee. Bunch of BS if you ask me when he hurt his knee during Basic Training almost 4 years ago! And they're just NOW doing something about it. He was transferred back to his other unit and kicked off of the deployment. He's been pretty bummed about it because we had already discussed and accepted the fact that he was going. That, and we really needed that money so we can build a house of our own. TC's doing better about it though.
I, on the other hand, am stoked! TC will be here for Grayson's first year and won't miss a thing. That's been the hardest thing to deal with through this whole thing. TC's been real down but I told him that he's the lucky one. He'll be able to be there for Grayson's first time going to the fair in October. He'll be there for Grayson's first Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day, Easter, and Birthday. He'll be here to see Grayson's first steps, first words, first haircut, and the first time he cuts a tooth. He'll be here for our anniversary and so much more! Not a lot of guys in the military who get deployed get to witness those times without a video camera or Skype. He'll be here and I'm more than thankful for that.
Things can change at any minute and that's what's in the back of my mind. Everything happens for a reason. This will be the 2nd deployment that has gotten snatched away from TC but I told him that everything happens for a reason. Because what if he did get to go on that first deployment. What if something happened to him then? I would have never known him. I would have never found my best friend and the man who I'm going to spend the rest of my life with....and we wouldn't have this beautiful baby boy in our lives or watch him grow up. Everything happens for a reason. I believe that with my whole heart.
As of right now, Grayson will be a month old on Thursday! Where has the time gone? We have watched him grow into a handsome little baby the past month. We have lost sleep, lost touch to the outside world, and we've lost our minds lol but we haven't lost time and I'm thankful for that.
Grayson weighs 8 pounds and 13 ounces as of this past Friday! He's a little chunk munk! I'm so blessed that he's healthy and that TC and I are healthy. I've come a long way since giving birth to Grayson and I thank God for getting me better. Grayson is such a good baby and such a blessing to mine and TC's lives. He's definitely a momma's boy though! He can't stand when I step out of the room or when I'm only 5 feet away from him. TC will be holding him in the recliner and I'll literally be 2 feet away on the couch and Grayson just stares at me the whole time waiting for me to get him lol but he loves his Daddy too! He likes to sucker punch Daddy in the face! haha! They're so cute together and the way TC looks at him is unbelievable! He loves his son so much!
Raising a baby is hard work especially when you're breastfeeding. It's frustrating some times because all you want to do is sleep without having to wake up every 2 hours. But I wouldn't trade it for the world because I'm going to miss these days as crazy as that sounds. Grayson won't be small forever and before we know it, he'll be all grown up...and I'm going to cry like a baby! Lol! This month has flown by and I hate it some times because it feels like time is slipping away. It's going by so fast and I can't believe it. Grayson and TC, I love yall more than anything in this world! To the moon and back <3
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