I seriously have the best husband ever! He didn't do anything today for me to say this (other than just being a great husband like always), but I'm serious! TC and I have only been dating a year and in that year we have gotten to know each other, fell in love with each other, made a baby, got married, and have been happy. I'm seriously the happiest I can be right now.
Some people always say you don't know a person after just a year of dating...and you can't fall madly in love with someone in just a year. Well, they're wrong because it has happened with TC and I. And I'm not just saying that because we had a baby. It feels like we've known each other forever.
When we found out I was pregnant, we were scared...no, we were TERRIFED! But TC reassured me that he wasn't going anywhere. That was my biggest fear. We had only been dating for 3 months and I got pregnant. I know that's a VERY short time...but we were in love. We had gotten to know each other so fast (considering the night we met, I poured everything out to him). I told him everything I had been through the past year. Granted, I didn't tell him EVERYTHING that I've been through. That came later. When I told him all of these things so fast, I thought, "oh great! I blew it! I scared him off." But that wasn't the case. He was an odd ball and was into things that most people would think was so weird and would be turned off from...but not me. I always give people chances. I don't judge anyone. I get to know a person before I jump to assumptions.
Shortly after we started talking, TC left for 10 days for AT. That's the moment when we got to really know each other. That's when we fell in love. That's the moment he first said "I love you" to me. And it's funny that you can be so connected to a person and get to know a person better when you're apart from them. TC was scared that I thought he was weird. He was scared that I was turned off by him and that he scared me off. I thought the same. They say opposites attract and they're right. TC and I never had much in common back then and we still really don't. But we do agree on a lot of things. We both hate to talk about politics and religion. We both believe what we believe and although we don't have the same beliefs on certain things, we accept that and never argue about it. We talk about it but we both agree that you can't change a person no matter how hard you try so why even bother? That just makes a person miserable.
It's amazing how you can fall so deeply in love with someone so fast. I've always been the type of person that the second I meet you, I find a connection with you. I get really close to people very easily and sometimes that back fires on me because it winds up with that person leaving me and me getting hurt. And that's only because me and that other person wind up not having anything to talk about anymore. We wind up getting to know each other so fast that we don't have anything in common anymore and we just part ways. And then sometimes, they just leave. I've been used to that my whole life. My daddy left me when I was 10. When he remarried, my stepmom and I got really attached because 1. I get along with anyone no matter the situation and 2. we had a lot in common. Once they separated and divorced, my stepmom and I lost touch and parted ways for 4 years and that hurt. It took me a long time to get over. But then we got back in touch by bumping into each other at my brother's birthday party at Frankie's Fun Park.
Any way, I got really comfortable with TC although I had a huge wall up because I had just gotten out of a rough relationship. I build walls and I hate it sometimes. I guess it's so I don't get hurt even though I wind up getting hurt in the end any way....but not with TC.
TC and I have never gotten into an argument where we're yelling and screaming at each other. Granted, we have tested each other's nerves which has led me to driving off mad and him sleeping on the couch...but we work it out. We cool off and talk about it and then we're both good and normal again.
I can tell you this though. I have fallen more in love with him after our son was born. The thought of 2 people creating something so sweet and innocent is just beautiful. It's been rough after we've gotten through the "happy baby" stage, but we manage. We still talk through anything and everything that frustrates us. I think the biggest thing now is the fact that TC is always working and I'm always at home with Grayson. That and I breastfeed and try to keep Grayson on the boob unless we're out and about so TC can't feed him. TC always tells me to pump a bottle so he can take turns feeding Grayson at night but it's just so much easier to breastfeed him and go to sleep.
TC has been so helpful though. He works so hard working 3 jobs (although he doesn't count the military as a job lol). He takes care of me and Grayson and makes sure we're alright above himself. He sacrifices so much for us and I don't think I could ever be so proud. He's the best husband and daddy I've ever seen.
The week after Grayson was born, TC had to go back to work and since I was having some complications, TC's mom stayed with Grayson and I one night. We stayed up talking and she was telling me about the night that TC and I went on our first date. She was telling me that TC always tells her things (more things then she wants to know lol) but that when she asked him where he was going that night, he only told her he was going on a date with someone and left it with that. He didn't tell her the girl's name, where he was taking her, no details at all. But she said we he got home, he was all smiles. She said that she had never seen him so happy. That night, he told her how amazing I was. I couldn't help but to cry because until she told me that, I didn't think the date went so well.
On our first date, we took separate cars (because TC is horrible at directions) and met up at Grecian Gardens and talked and talked. We never had one awkward silence during dinner. I cracked up most of the time. Afterwards, we sat in the back up his truck, smoked a cigarette, and talked some more. I thought that after we were done we were gonna part ways....but we didn't. We decided to try and go to the movies and SAFELY raced there to see who's short cut was the best way (and of course I won lol). The movies were closed so we went to Wings N Ale instead and played pool and played games. TC taught me how to PROPERLY play pool and how to win a prize in the claw machine (he's really good at that one). We laughed at had a great time. We even helped a friend of mine from high school get in the car he was riding in because he was SO drunk on his 21st birthday that night lol THAT was funny seeing TC approach that one. The only reason why I thought the date didn't go well was because TC didn't kiss me. Corny as hell, I know. But that's what guys do on the first date. They pretty much stick their whole tongue in your mouth and think they're gonna get lucky that night and get to 3rd base on the 1st date lol...but not TC. When I got home that night, I was just bummed for some reason. Don't get me wrong, I respected the hell outta him for not making a move...but in the back on my mind, I wanted a damn kiss! Not a huge, blown-out, nasty kiss. Just a simple one. I got home and was happy but that kiss was just bothering the hell outta me for some odd reason. TC texted me to let me know he got home safely. I was really short with him and blamed it on me "being tired". He knew that wasn't the reason and asked me to please tell him what was wrong...so I told him. He told me that he respected me enough not to make a move. He told me that he takes dating slow. He goes on 3 dates before he determines if he wants to pursue a relationship. THAT really crushed me because I've never met a guy who said that so I thought he was just saying that to get rid of me. I felt like he didn't like me and I asked him so many questions like, "do you think you'll go on 3 dates with me?", "do you like me?", "what do you like about me?" I felt myself pushing him away and turning him off. But he reassured me he liked me so far and he really wanted to go on a 2nd date with me.
Our 2nd date consisted of meeting up at what used to be The Dam Bar and Grill and then led to The Ale House. We were both slap dab worn out and didn't really feel like being out so we took our date back to his friend AJ's house where I spent the night and cuddled with TC.
Our 3rd date consisted of going to AJ's with a few friends, playing cards, and getting drunk as shit lol. I didn't really drink though. I had a half of a 4 Loco if that. That's where we had our first kiss which was TOTALLY awkward as HELL! Only because we were playing this card game that I can't remember the name of to save my life. Well, the card game had certain rules if you laid down a certain card. Each number card had a rule to it. One of those rules was truth or dare and of course TC chose dare (because he HATES truths) so one of the girls dared him to kiss me because they knew he hadn't yet. Pretty sure we would have won the Most Awkward Moment Award of the Year! Lol! But later that night, we cuddled and he made up for the awkward kiss.
Any way! (I really do get lost in thought lol!). When TC's mom told me the reaction on his face after our first date, I literally cried I was so happy. She told me that at that moment, she knew I'd be in his life for a long time and that I was a keeper. She hadn't even met me yet and she thought that! All TC told her that night was that I was amazing. He could have hooked up with a stripper and had amazing sex for all she knew! Haha! Just kidding!
This is getting long lol probably because Grayson is sound asleep and I have all this time to write lol.
I just love TC so much! I know I say this all the time in my blog. Shoot, him and Grayson are all I talk about on my Facebook statuses too. I just can't believe how lucky I am to have such an amazing man in my life and a precious baby boy that I can just stare at and fall in love with so easily every day. Life gets crazy sometimes. No, chaotic I take that back lol. I get frustrated, I get upset, I wanna pull my own hair out at times, TC works all the time, the baby cries more times than I wanna hear, the house is a wreck, there's dishes piled up, there's dirty diapers taking up vacancy in a trash can of it's own, the same lullaby gets old after the 168th time I've sang it, bills pile up, laundry accumulates my life, I use more laundry detergent than I do any other kind of soap, I get spit up on and peed and pooped on on an hourly basis, and there are toys and pacifiers and blankets strung out in my living room....but you know what? I wouldn't trade it for the world! Because at the end of the day, none of that matters when TC comes home and holds me, kisses me, and tells me how beautiful I am and tells me how lucky he is to have me. <3 I love you, baby! <3
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