Our gorgeous son was born on April 23rd at 1:07 pm weighing in at 7 pounds and 4 ounces, 19 3/4 inches long! It was a long week and a very emotional one at that so here's the recap of it all:
Well first of all, let me say that I am now officially Mariah Wallace as of April 19th! We got married so last minute because TC and I knew we wouldn't have time to get married and fill out all of the paper work we need after Grayson was born and before he left for AT. So we took the plunge and went ahead and got married. We also did it for Grayson. A lot of people tell me we got married because we had a baby. Some people even make rude comments and say we HAD to get married. That's not the case. If we got married because we had a baby, we would have done it when I found out I was pregnant. TC and I love each other more than anything. We loved each other before I got pregnant. And we love each other even more because of Grayson. I don't have to explain any of that to anyone. What we have is special and just because we've only known each other a year, doesn't mean anything. We have fallen in love with each other, we support each other, and we're there for each other through thick and thin and that's how it's meant to be. But anyway, once TC gets back from his deployment, we are going to have a beautiful wedding and I can't wait! Ok back to the story:
I was supposed to be induced April 24th but after going to the doctor that Monday (April 22nd), they were scared I had pre-eclampsia due to my blood pressure being way too high and my swelling going wayyy up from my feet all the way to my knees....SO they decided to put me in the hospital that night.
Monday night, Dr. Morton started my cervidil. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's a medicine to soften the cervix and speed up labor. Tuesday morning, they took it out and checked my cervix. Yeah, nothing! I was still stuck at a 1-2 dilation. Dr. Reed broke my water at 7:40 and ordered my epidural right after they did that. Contractions started VERY shortly after they broke my water and let me tell you, those damn things are no joke! But with the help of my wonderful husband and my amazing doula, I pushed through them. They gave me my epidual at 8:50. Around 12:30, they came in and told me that is was best to go ahead and give me a c-section because I wasn't dilating AT ALL, Grayson wasn't moving down far enough, and he'd get stuck coming out vaginally. TC was at our house grabbing a few things and made it back in time. He was SO nervous and was scared they were gonna go ahead without him, but I reassured him that everything was going to be ok and that they weren't going to start without him there. Him and our wonderful doula, Kayla, got all geared up in their scrubs and they wheeled me out for my c-section. TC was so wonderful during my c-section. He made sure I stayed calm through all of the pain and pressure that came along with my c-section. And our wonderful doula took so many great pictures during the whole thing.
Grayson Michael Wallace was born at 1:07 pm weighing in at 7 pounds and 4 ounces, 19 3/4 inches long. TC and I balled as we heard his first cry and as we got to meet our son for the first time. Such an emotional and exciting experience. TC wheeled Grayson out to the nursery as they were stitching me up while Kayla took TC's play and kept me calm and pushed me through the pain and pressure. After they got done stitching me up, they took me to the recovery room where shortly after Grayson joined me so I could breastfeed him for the first time. Again, such an emotional and exciting experience. TC was there to support me while Kayla again, took such amazing pictures they we're going to cherish forever!
A few hours after I got settled into my new room, we were informed that Grayson was having trouble breathing from the tube they had to put in the suction out all the fluid from his lungs which also made his poor little nose inflamed. Talk about how I cried like a baby because he wasn't able to be in the room with TC and I the entire time. That was probably the most heartbreaking thing we experienced. But we were able to go to his side and be with him and I did get to breastfeed him every 3 hours and spend as much timhe as I wanted with him.
Wednesday, I got to take a shower and peel off the bandage they had on my incision. TC was amazing and got in the shower with me and helped me. I cried so bad because I was so scared but TC again helped me push through that. Afterwards, they wanted me to try and walk some. I couldn't make it down the hall without getting winded and dizzy and without my heart raising so fast. That's when I started having tremors in my neck. It felt just like the mimicking seizures I have from my conversion disorder, but I was awake and able to hear everything going on, but couldn't move. It was like I was paralyzed. Usually with my conversion disorder when I have these episodes, I am unconscious and not aware of anything that is going on. So this was SO scary! They put me on Ativan to calm down some but then I was told I couldn't breastfeed for 24 hours after taking that medicine. As much as I needed that medicine, I was devastated that I wouldn't be able to breastfeed my precious son.
Thursday, they wanted me to walk some more and I felt the same way. They came in and told me that my hemoglobin was way too low and that I would need a blood transfusion. That and my blood pressure started to sky rocket starting on Monday. I never had a problem with my blood pressure until that Monday. Thursday night, they started my blood transfusion. I needed 3 units of blood that's how bad I lost blood. They got one unit of blood in the IV they had in me since Tuesday but when they went to go and put the 2nd unit of blood in my IV, my IV popped out. So they had to stick me again and if anyone knows my veins, yall know how hard it is for them to get one. A bunch of pokes and bruises later and after 4 people tried, they finally got an IV in my arm. And poor TC was awoken with me screaming from the pain of them poking me and rolling my veins that he just leaned over and held me.
Friday morning, I felt SO much better and was able to walk around without any problems except for the trimmers I was still having. The coloring in my face was back to normal, I wasn't getting too winded from walking, and my heart was no longer racing out of my chest. I did still have high blood pressure though.
Later that afternoon, Grayson got to FINALLY be discharged and into our room after his circumcision and after TC and I did the CPR class. We were SO happy for him to be back with us. So happy that we didn't sleep like we said we were going to lol.
I was finally discharged at around 4:30. TC was so anxious to get us home that he had all of our stuff packed up, on the cart, and ready to go for hours! We got home at 5:30. My wonderful sister-in-law was there when we got home. She had stayed all week to help TC around the house and to make sure everything was cleaned and in place for us to be home. Couldn't be more thankful for her.
Saturday night, I had to go BACK to the hospital due to my trimmers getting worse. I found out I had a UTI so they have me on some antibiotics for that. They did a cat scan to make sure I didn't have an infection from my c-section, and thank the Lord I didn't. They said the trimmers could be caused by numerous things (my blood pressure being so high, the UTI, my c-section, the fact I had to have a blood transfusion, or just the aftermath of giving birth). I went to my primary physician Wednesday and she said the same thing and just to keep an eye on it the next few weeks and if it doesn't clear up, to come back and she'll go from there. Thank you to my wonderful momma and Nanie for taking care of Grayson Saturday night while TC took me to the ER. I love yall so much!
I just want to thank my wonderful husband who was there for me every step of the way and who has been there for me since the day we met. He helped me push through my contractions, breathed with me through the pain, calmed me down when I was scared and upset, ran back and forth from the hospital to the house and back to get everything I needed/wanted from the house, ran errands for me that we needed to get done, brought me food when I didn't want hospital food, made me comfortable before he made himself comfortable, held my hand through all of the pain, supported me through every single thing, cried with me as our son was born and cried with me as I went through the unimaginable, and just did everything in his will to make sure Grayson and I were ok and happy. He is such a great daddy! Has been throughout my whole pregnancy and he's an even better one now that Grayson is here. He loves his son so much! I couldn't ask for a better man in my life!
To my wonderful doula, Kayla, who helped me through my epidural, helped me breathe through my contractions, helped me through my c-section, and definitely for taking the most amazing pictures during the whole thing! I couldn't thank you enough for everything you did, girl!
To my wonderful Momma, Nanie, Daddy, and mother-in-law for being there every step of the way calming me down through everything. To my Momma who sang me my song while I was scared and upset (and loopy as crap lol). To my daddy who held my hand through some of my contractions. To my Nanie who visited us and cooked us food once we got home. You're so wonderful and I love you! To my mother-in-law who stayed with me in the hospital while TC was running errands and while my momma and Nanie were at work. And thank you to her also for staying with me Wednesday night while TC was at work, for cooking such an amazing dinner and dessert, and for talking with me and keeping me company. To my sister-in-law for staying all week and cleaning our house and making sure everything was perfect for us to come home. You're awesome, girl! To my wonderful friends who came to see me and keep me a little distracted while Grayson was in Special Care. Sad some of you couldn't see or hold him but thank you so much for taking the time to coume to the hospital to keep me company. And last but not least, thank you to all of the doctors and nurses for taking such good care of Grayson and I while we were there.
As of right now, Grayson will be 2 weeks on Tuesday. My, how time has gone by so fast! It needs to slow down. TC leaves for AT on Friday and will be back June 4th. When he gets back, he's taking a week off of work so we can go on a mini vacation with Grayson. I'm going to miss him SO much while he's gone for nearly a month! I don't know what I'm going to do without him here, but I know Grayson and I will be fine with the help of family and friends. Thanks so much to my best friend, Gretchen, who will be staying with Grayson and I while TC is gone. I don't want Friday to come. It's going to be hard. It's going to be even harder come August when he has to deploy. As much as we need the money, I pray to God something changes. TC is the love of my life. He's my best friend! I have never felt so much love for one man in my entire life. He has my heart forever and I pray to God that he stays safe and comes home to us. I have to keep that faith. It just hurts so much! And I can't help but to cry every time I think about him leaving for a year. I don't know what I'm going to do, but like TC always says, h"we got this shit!" I just hope I can do it. I know in my heart I can. I'm just going to miss him SO much! It hurts so bad knowing that Grayson will be about 4 months old when TC leaves and he'll be 1.5 when he returns. I promised TC I will video tape everything and take more pictures to count...but it's still not going to be the same without him. It hurts. I can't express that enough. Please pray for our little family. We need it more than anything right now.
Grayson and TC are sound asleep. Both are snoring and both are in the same position lol too sticken cute! I love my boys so much! And although it's been hard and frustrating at times and no matter how much I just wanna cry with all of the emotions going through my body, I couldn't be happier right now. I am blessed beyond words. I thank God for giving me such a precious gift and for giving me the most amazing man I could have ever asked for. It's wonderful!
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