What a glorious day!

I am having a glorious days! You know when you have one of those days where you just totally crack yourself up by the things you say and do? Well, I'm having one of those kinds of days....but in a good/non-embarrassing way lol.

I just got a phone call from my bridal consultant from David's Bridal. She left me a voicemail wondering if I was still interested in the wedding dress I picked out and put up there back in January. It just dawned on me that April 20, 2013, I should be marrying my ex-fiance. Well come to find out, that same day is when my baby is due. I found it hilarious! I seriously wanna call her back up and be like, "no, I won't be needing that wedding dress anymore because I'm not getting married to that guy on April 20, 2013 anymore. But instead, I'm with another man and our unborn child is due on that day!" I wonder if and when I tell her that, we'll end our conversation and she will turn to her coworker and say, "what a slut!" LMAO! That would be priceless! I'm definitely far from a slut, but I could totally see where someone would think that I was if I said it that way. BAHAHAHA!

Other than that oh so amazing discovery, I am feeling awesome today! I'm not hurting, I haven't had a seizure/event in a couple days, I don't feel nauseous, nothing. I'm feeling great today! Even my mood is awesome! :D

As of now, I'm gonna go cuddle up with my man and watch a movie before bed time :D

12 weeks and 4 days :D

I am 12 weeks and 4 days as of today! And I am ecstatic! I have finally stopped puking my guts out! Still feel nauseous but glad I'm not puking even though sometimes, my nausea sticks around for hours and I wish I would just puke already! I hate the feeling of having to puke but you can't! Urghh one of the worst feelings ever!

TC and I are debating on whether we should pay the extra money to find out what the gender is at 16 weeks or wait until the 20-24 week appointment. Me being the impatient person that I am, CANNOT wait! Lol! But we will discuss it and decide before my 16 week appointment which in November 20th. :D

The past few days have been a little hard though. Baby is perfectly fine, so no worries there. I have a conversion disorder which causes me to have what is called "events" that mimick seizures. I haven't had an event in a few months but the past 5 nights in a row, I've had them and then get really bad muscle spasms in m stomach and back. Mine are caused by stress but I can't think of anything that I would have been stressed out about the past 5 days but then again, your body reacts differently and you could be stressed but never know it. The OB said she has had 2 other patients other than me that have this disorder and that 1 of them had to be on bed rest her entire pregnancy because hers was really bad. Mine's not that bad anymore. It used to be really bad when I was on medicine for epilepsy when I shouldn't have been but that's when they thought I had epilepsy. I can usually tell when they're coming on depending on my stress level. I'll feel them coming on and can sit down in time before I have one. But sometimes, I can't feel them on quick enough to sit down which is where I fall and hit my head or hurt myself and what not. The muscle spasms were concerning me for the baby's sake but my OB said that as long as I'm not falling or bleeding, the baby is perfectly fine because the womb acts as a big muscle that protects the baby so that made me feel so much better! I just pray that I don't fall where I'm gonna have to be on bed rest! I just wanna cry! :'(

The difference between seizures and events are seizures are caused by brain waves breaking, events are psychological. I was diagnosed with epilepsy on July 30th, 2009. For 2 years, I was pretty much a lab rat, and I was on at least 10 different medications. My neurologist at the time would try one medicine for a few months and once that one decided not to work, it was off to a different kind of medicine. It was frustraing to say the least. That whole time, I'd have 4-10 (what was then called) seizures a day! After months of trying to get omitted to MUSC in Charleston, on April 11th, 2011 I was finally omitted for a 3-5 day evalation and depending on what the doctors would find during my evaluation, possible surgery was in the question. After 3 days, they found out that I didn't have epilepsy but instead, I had a conversion disorder. The doctors described that police officers, military men and women, firefighters, etc., go through things on a daily basis that not everyone goes through....and the things that I have been through, not everyone has been through which causes this disorder.

So nonetheless, it's been an emotional few days. I pray that I don't have any events tonight. That would be amazing! These muscle spasms afterwards are just killer and I'm so sore it's not even funny! :(

Other than all that chaos, the baby is perfect! They did the Nuchal Translucency test this morning. If yall don't know what that is, it's a test they do where they measure the baby's neck to determine any deformities or mental handicaps. That turned out normal thank the Lord! The heart beat is 159 so it's strong and steady.

TC and I are planning on having a gender reveal party once the time comes to find out the sex of our baby. But TC and I are planning on knowing the sex before our family and friends do. We're planning on not having the one ultrasound screen that is for us to be turned on and we're getting the ultrasound technician to put whether it's a boy or a girl in a sealed envelope. Once our appointment is done, we are meeting up with my best friend, Gretchen, who is going to take the envelope, open to see the gender, and then go get either blue or pink balloons. While she does that, TC and I are going to stay busy. Gretchen is going to fill a cardboard box up with the balloons and she's going to take pictures of us while we open it and see what we're having. Then either that night or a few days after, we're having the gender reveal party for our family and friends to find out. We're getting a plain cake made and we're going to get the bakery to fill the cake with either pink or blue icing. We'll already know the sex, but we'll cut the cake for our family and friends to find out. I CAN'T WAIT!!! :D

OH also! My cousin, Stephanie's, gender reveal party was this past Sunday and she is having a.....GIRL!!! :D

Alrighty, I'm gonna spend some cuddle time with my man, watch some tv, and go to bed soon. Gotta a semi big day tomorrow (but watch, I'll nap through half of it lol).

Stephanie and Justin's Gender Reveal Party 10-14-12

12 weeks, 4 days. Our little plum :D

Nick Mom Anyone?

I am watching these shows on Nick Mom and they are hilarious! I never knew there was a channel on Nickelodeon after 12 called Nick Mom but I love it! I'm seriously rolling on the floor right now. Just a few things from the Parental Discretion With Stephanie Wilder-Taylor show:

“My wife and I have a son who is 2. Yeah, she’s still breastfeeding him. And he walks around this house on his little tricycle all like, ‘YEAH! I’m the sheriff of Nipple Town!’ Um, no you’re not kid. This is a co-op. We share the nipples in this house!”

“So my daughter asked why our dog, Zeus, only has one eye and I couldn’t help myself so I leaned down to her and I said, ‘Zeus was a bad listener you see. And when you’re not a good listener BOOM! Your eye pops out.’ Now so many people say, ‘OMG! THAT’S SO AWFUL! Why would you tell your kid that?!?!’ Well, she’s a good listener now so it’s a win-win in my eyes.”

The black woman is the funniest! She says, “so my kid has this girl in her class like LaDashia. The teach pronounced it ‘La-Dash-ia’ and the little girl says, ‘NO! it’s La-DAY-shia.’ There are 3 things you can assume from this girl. 1. her momma will never be at the PTA Meetings, 2. she doesn’t have a daddy because there is NO way that 2 people signed off on this level of ignorance for this child’s name, and 3. that child’s gonna have an attitude up the yang because she’s not gonna be able to find her name on a keychain.”

"You know in your kids' classrooms, there's always one kid's mother who's always the planner and perfect. Right? Well my daughter has a little girl named Emily in her class with a mother like that. One day, my daughter came home from school and told me that the tooth fairy came to visit Emily the night before and that she got glitter on her floor, a barbie doll, an Ipod, and a whopping $20 bill. My daughter said, 'momma, the toothy fairy hates me! Why don't I get stuff like that?' I told her, 'well honey, it's time to tell you the truth. The reason why Emily gets all of that stuff is because the tooth fairy doesn't like Emily so her mommy pretends to be the tooth fairy. You see, the REAL tooth fairy brings special kids like you a sweaty $1 bill and gives the other $19 to mommy so she'll have money to give to you the next morning for school. Emily's mommy is a fake tooth fairy and an lying asshole.' And that, ladies, is how it's done! BOOYAH!"

HOLY CRAP! Hilarious!

TC and I have discussed breastfeeding and he's all in for me doing it because that's what I wanna do if I can. TC only says that so he won't have to feed our kid as often as he would if we were bottle feeding. I'm not stupid, TC lol. But that's ok, he's gonna be jealous of that little booger when it comes because he won't be able to be the Sheriff of Nipple Town and it won't be a co-op! LMAO!

TC is at drill this weekend and I absolutely hate this! Today has just dragged on and on! I'm exhausted and been wanting to sleep all day but now that it's night time, I can't sleep. So here I sit at 1:11 in the morning. I did have a good day today! Other than having to pee every 5 minutes, no pain and no nausea or being sick. So kuddos for me! I actually haven't been sick in awhile. I've just had the feeling of needing to puke which I think is worse than actually puking because at least when you puke it only lasts around 5-10 minutes rather than having the feeling of needing to puke lasts all damn day! But any way! It's been a good day. Had a photoshoot with the cutest little boy ever today! Most gorgeous eyes and smile! He's gonna break some hearts when he's older if he hasn't already lol! Watch out ladies!

Ok so TC and I have been trying to find a house or apartment for rent and it's been a roller coaster! We've found a few though. We just need to save up some money. I guess we should have money saved up and THEN start looking because I've seen so many places that I absolutely love and they'll probably be gone by the time we have the money which sucks, so crossing our fingers these houses and townhouses will still be available. Needless to say, it's been a roller coaster! We're just so ready to have our own little place to call home it's not even funny!

The countdown begins! 10 more days until be get to see our little peanut again! It's the size of a lime now. Too cool! We learned that it has developed reflexes! So when I push on my belly, it has the reflex to move! So neat!

Alrighty it's time to finish up these pictures and hit the sheets! Gotta photoshoot tomorrow afternoon and I can't wait! :D

Here's a sneak peek of sweet, little Liam from today's shoot! :D

There's something in your voice that makes my heart beat fast...

Ok so there's a lot to talk about :)

1. The title of this blog is the song I'm listening to. It's called "Feels Like Home" by Edwina Hayes. Go check that shiz out! ;D

2. Tomorrow is Uncle Kota's 13th birthday! Can't believe my little brother will be 13 and is an uncle to one little girl and soon to be another little girl (I hope lol). I'm planning on wrapping his gift today and giving it to him once I go and pick him up from school. He's gonna be stoked! Dakota, I love you Bug!

3. A lot of people are asking me how I told TC that I was pregnant. Keep in mind, I was shocked and far from excited about this when I found out since TC and I have only been together a short time so I didn't know how to react let alone tell him. BUT! I went up to his work to get something to eat. I had planned on telling him after he got off. He could tell something was wrong (and if you truly know me, you know that my face cannot hide ANYTHING like I want it too jeez). He asked me what was wrong and I told him not to worry about it right now and that I'd talk to him after he got off of work. I knew that was a bad idea to go up to his work because I knew my dang face couldn't hide what I needed to tell him so badly! But I DESPERATELY needed my chicken salad sub lol. Well I'm standing at the counter while he's ringing up my sub and he says, "babe you're worrying me." I told him to please not worry, that it could wait until he got off of work. He said, "are you leaving me?" I said, "hahaha OH YES! Because I hate your sticken guts and all." And of course I start crying after he said that. Then he asks, "you're pregnant aren't you?" I just stood there. Thank the Lord there was no one else in the sub shop or I would have been mortified! Lol! I just shook my head yes very discretely. His mouth just dropped to the floor, his eyes got real big, and he just kinda chuckled for a minute in disbelief. It was pretty funny. And then of course we went through 7 pregnancy tests over the weekend. 6 were positive and 1 was negative. I told him, "baby, there's no changing those 6 positives whether or not we had 1 negative." Lol!

4. I had a little bit of an accident last night. Ok more like a BIG accident but all is fine and baby is fine! I went to go find some ranch dressing in our pantry cabinets. Well I moved a bottle of vinegar from the second shelf not knowing it was holding up the very top shelf. And of course it all comes toppling down and lands right on my stomach! Can we say, "OUCH?!?!?!" TC took me to Urgent Care and everything looks fine. I just have a little bit of bruising on my stomach. But other than that, I am fine and the baby is fine. No bleeding. Daddy is a nervous wreck but other than that, all is good. Also, as I laid in the hospital bed, TC kept telling our child, "if you don't stop making mommy hurt, you will get a spanking when you're older." Immediately after he said that, I got a muscle spasm in my stomach. Every time TC mentions the word "spanking" that's what happens. I know it's not kicks because my baby is too tiny for all that but I think it's funny. I told him that our baby isn't stupid! It knows naughty words already! lol THAT and when I said, "give me a sign you're a boy," nothing happened. But when I said, "give me a sigh you're a girl," I got a muscle spasm in my stomach. Lol! It felt so weird! Also, TC told the doctor that I had a conversion disorder but that I hadn't had a seizure since I've been pregnant. He asked if it was some sort of hormone thing. The doctor told us that it could be because of my hormones suddenly being different but that my body just likes being pregnant where I don't have any stress. That was strange but ok! Apparently my body LOVESSSS being pregnant! Haha! :)

5. I go to the doctor for my 12 week ultrasound of the 16th of October (but really I'll be 13 weeks. She got her weeks confused but whatever lol). We get to find out whether it's a boy or a girl between November 6th-December 4th. My OB said that it just depended on how stubborn our little peanut is to show us what he/she is. As if it's anything like it's Daddy, it'll be stubborn as hell (it already is!) lol! TC and I are in a battle right now because we should be able to find out whether it's a boy or girl right near my birthday. Well he wants a boy and I want a girl AND Clemson and Carolina play ON my birthday and of course, he goes for Clemson and I go for Carolina lol. So it's a MAJOR battle! I told him that he could win the battle between Clemson and Carolina because they play every year but I can't have a baby girl every year. He said, "I can arrange that" HA HA HA! He thinks he's SOOOO funny! lol

6. We're having a gender reveal party. We're going to have the ultrasound tech put whether it's a boy or a girl on a card and seal it in an envelope. Then we're going to a bakery and getting them to make just a plain white cake and put a layer of pink or blue icing in it so when we cut the cake, it'll reveal the icing. I have everything planned out and I swear this party is going to be cooler than my baby shower! LMAO! We're also going to ask my friend Gretchen if she could take some pictures for us. We're going to get a big huge box and fill it with either blue or pink balloons and then we're going to open the box. Of course we'll already know but I thought it would cute. I think we may do the balloon thing before the party, that way TC and I will already know what it is and then do the cake thing for the family. TC was being stubborn and wanted to know right when the ultrasound tech did the ultrasound but I have begged him for weeks to just do this reveal thing with me but he was like, "well I'll just find out and you don't have to" BUT NOW! He has FINALLY gone with me with this idea. He doesn't know about the balloon thing yet but I thought it would be a good compromise because you know I'm just THAT great of a girlfriend that I make compromises! Tehe! :)

Ok I am done! Lol I am going to go listen to some music, pin some pins on Pinterest, and eat my peanut butter and banana rice cake sandwich! Oh yes! Be jealous! Lol! Hope everyone has a fantabulous day! ;D

This is 2 of 6 that were positive lol

Hello crabby and cleany!

So, I think I am nesting wayyyy earlier than I thought I would! I have been cleaning my house SPOTLESS! This includes: dusting, sweeping, vacumning, moping, scrubbing, and washing EVERYTHING! The bathrooms are spotless, the laundry is caught up, there hasn't been a dish in sight, and no clothes or dishes or toys in the living room. Everyone thinks there is something seriously wrong with me lol. Nah, I'm just pregnant.

I have also just been getting in these ill moods. Getting frustrated when someone doesn't put their dishes in the sink or the dish washer, when someone puts clothes on the bathroom floor instead of the basket, and don't forget when the boys don't put the seat down! Grrr! I swear I do believe I will finally get my daughter because if this baby isn't a girl, then this little boy is sure making me crazy when it comes to hormones. BUT! My doctor did say that it's usually a girl when you're abnormally moody since you're having to share hormones and all. So my fingers are crossed! I seriously do need to stop biting everyone's heads off. Especially TC before I seriously scare him! Lol!

Ok, so Halloween is approaching and I absolutely LOVE Halloween! It's my favorite holiday besides Christmas! So in honor of Halloween, if I go anywhere or do anything, I'm going to dress my belly up! I'm gonna dismember a doll and glue the legs and arms on a t-shirt and have it look like my baby is coming out and holding a trick-or-treat bag. Lol! This is gonna be awesome! And TC doesn't know it yet, but he is going to dress up as Woody from Toy Story. Because I'm too obsessed with Woody it ain't funny! TC's gonna hate me but he doesn't know that there's something in it for him bahahaha! :)

Alright I'm going to finish watching Halloweentown, eat the rest of my dinner, burn my candles, and relax :)

Happy Happy Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday to the most amazing man in my life! Well, ONE of the most amazing at least! TC turned 24 today. Last night, I gave TC his present and he loved it. I got him an antique model car that you put together and paint. So glad he like it. Today, we celebrated by lazing around the house doing absolutely nothing! I had this big plan for TC if he had to work that I was going to decorate his truck while he was at work. But that didn't happen lol. So we were lazy all day. Tonight, we got Krispy Kreme, Little Caesars, and watched a movie. I have been really good about eating right, drinking a lot of water, taking my prenatal vitamins, all of that good jazz. So I was really bad today and got 6 cream filled donuts, cheese pizza, and a hazelnut frappe. I haven't drank much of any caffeinated sodas since I found out I was pregnant. So I drank one gosh dernit lol. I know I have only been pregnant for 8 weeks, but the OB told me that your 1st trimester is really important. So I've been trying to do good and do everything I'm supposed to. Call me cautious, I don't care. I'm being healthy for myself and my child so I DON'T get gestational diabetes AND so I WON'T have a 9 or 10 pound kid pop out of me because I've eaten unhealthy crap lol.

Ok well any way! Today was a very good day and a very good night! So glad I got to spend the day with TC on his birthday. Wouldn't have traded it for the world! TC, I love you baby! I hope you had a great birthday!<3 :D

1st Ultrasound

TC and I went to the OBGYN and got our first ultrasound picture and got to here our peanut's heart beat! I love our little baby already! It's so teeny tiny! I have a little bit of a baby bump going on, and TC LOVES it! He can't stop feeling my stomach and sometimes it gets annoying lol. He says, "you get to feel him/her all the time because you're carrying it. I can't so get over me touching you!" lol (that's what got us into this am I right? lol). I can't wait until our baby gets bigger where he/she starts to kick and move around. It's going to be really exciting and we can't wait!

Keeping this post short and sweet. Waiting on TC to get home from drill so we can get some pictures done of him and I in his uniform. Can't wait to see him! Love him so much! In the meantime, I shall go enjoy this weather we have going on and take some pictures. :)

Cora-Leigh or Grayson, Mommy and Daddy loves you! <3