I've been having dreams about my baby (good dreams that is). They're mostly me going into labor and holding the baby. TC asked me, "is it a boy or girl in your dreams?" And what's funny is, I don't know. I have this strong feeling in my dreams (and in reality) that it's a girl. But in my dream, there's no sign whether it's a boy or girl yet. Every time I have this dream, the baby is always wrapped up so it's not nakey where I can see inbetween its legs lol. The blanket isn't even pink or blue. It's just plain. But I have this feeling in my dreams that it's a girl. It's so weird!
I've been feeling pretty good lately. I still have muscle spasms and a pinched nerve in my back, and I've also developed gas in my ribs that is really intense. But other than that, I've been feeling good and keeping busy. This pregnancy is going by so fast it seems. I can't believe I'm already 3.5 months pregnant! It feels like just yesterday we announced that we were pregnant and got our first ultrasound at 7 weeks. My belly is growing and it feels so weird but cool at the same time. TC talks to the baby every night before we go to bed. I know the baby can't hear quite yet. It can ony hear and feel vibrations so I know it hears the vibration of Daddy's voice. It's just a very emotional experience to go through (in a good way). :D
I was watching A Baby Story this morning after running around doing errands. I sat there and I seriosuly cried when the woman was in the hospital getting ready to deliver her baby and cried even more once her baby was born. It just made me realize that that's going to be me and TC come April. It's just overwhelming and so unbelievable that I'm going to be a mommy soon. And I can't wait! I know it's going to be hard work, I know it's going to test mine and TC's relationship, I know we're going to have lack of sleep for awhile, and I know that the whole experience will be TOTALLY different than what we think it will be...but we're excited. Terrified, but excited. We have promised each other that no matter what happens, this won't tear us apart. We know it's going to be hard, we know that we're going to test each others' patience, and we know it's going to be a lot of hard work the rest of our lives...but we got this. We have promised each other that we'll stick by each other no matter how hard it is, no matter how much we wanna scream, no matter how hard we wanna walk away from each other, and no matter how much we wanna kill one another lol. Some people doubt us, but we'll show them. And hey, if it doesn't work in the end, we're still going to be there for our child...but we know that we both got this and we're in this together and that this won't tear us apart. I know a lot of couples who aren't married say that (and even some married couples say that), but we know in our hearts that we got this and we're going to make it work no matter how many people doubt us. We have our family and a few friends that are behind us 110% and that's all we need...and we have each other. We are so blessed! :D
Alrighty, I gotta get off of here and go run some more errands. Pheww! I'm ready for a nap! :D
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