I am blessed

I am blessed because God has put me through so much in my life. Everyone goes through a lot in their life. God never said life would be easy, but He did promise to make it worth-while. He promised to be there for us to lift us up when we're down, to take away all of our pain, to be that one set of footprints in the sand because that's where He has carried us, and to always love us for who we are on the inside and not the out. God doesn't put us through obstacles to punish us no matter how much we feel He is, but to make us stronger people in the end. To help us learn from our mistakes and let go of those mistakes and never turn back. I know there are so many people out there that have been through more tragic things then I could ever imagine going through. I'm thankful that God has put me through so much no matter how hard it was, has been, and is. I am blessed.

I am blessed because I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, clean water, clothes on my back, shoes on my feet, a bed to sleep in, a car to drive me places, air to cool me off and heat to warm me up, things that I don't even need, a wonderful job that I cherish, family and friends who love me and who I adore, a man in my life who is there for me every day, and I'm able to walk and talk and see and take care of myself without assistance. I might not have much, but in my heart I have it all. We all take things for granted. We even take the people in our life for granted. Sometimes we don't even notice it until it's too late. All of these things we have, we think everyone else has too...but a lot of times, that's not the case. I'm thankful that God has brought me these things and more. I am blessed.

I am blessed because after a few not so pleasant relationships, God has finally brought a man in my life who treats me better than any man ever has. You have to stop looking for that right person and let God bring them to you when the time is right. You have to make yourself happy before you can ever make anyone else happy. You have to be patient. And as hard as it is for me to be patient, I'm glad I was because I wouldn't have TC in my life. He's such a sweet and caring man. I have no idea what I'd do without him. He makes me laugh like no other person ever has. The little things he does for me makes me smile. He surprises me in some way every single day. I know in my heart that he is the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with even if we've only known each other a year. It's been the best year of my life and no one can ever tell me differently. Our relationship started out slow and got just all of a sudden everything went so fast but I've never doubted if our relationship would last or not. I don't know what the future holds for us but I do know that no matter where it takes us, we're going to be stronger than ever and we'll be happy. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with this man. I am blessed.

I am blessed because I have been able to experience motherhood. As hard as it has been, my son is healthy and I am healthy. So many women can't have kids and I couldn't imagine how hard that is to be told that. I was told 2 years ago that I would have a hard time having kids because I was having some female problems for a year due to all the medicine I was on for epilepsy when I never had epilepsy. That discouraged me but I knew those doctors were wrong. As silly as this sounds and as much as I complain about it, I am thankful for the swollen feet and hands, the morning sickness, the aches and pains, the cramping and pressure, the numbness, the moments I get out of breath just by putting my socks on, and the tiredness that pregnancy has brought me...because I know not every woman can experience being pregnant. And I know in the end, I will have a baby boy to look at and to be thankful for. I am blessed.

I am blessed beyond words right now and I couldn't be happier with my life. I have my bad and off days like everyone else in this world...but those bad days fade out into the distance and God provides me with better days. I get emotional, sometimes I feel like giving up, and sometimes I feel like no one is here to understand....but then God helps me. He helps me by picking me back up when I feel like giving up. He helps me by bringing people into my life to help me cope with things that I don't know how to cope with on my own. I am blessed.

"I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, to push people, to push myself. I was taught never to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself, but most of all, to fight for myself."